been awhile since i've blogged something up like this, so here it goes..
Yesterday was a pretty long day and it was very shocking, I almost busted one tear because it was that shocking and it was very hard for me especially to believe it. Well let's not get into that right now..
Well lately for me like last week we started Summer Vacation, so i guess we're free right? not exactly. I can't really be going anywhere without giving full information of where I'm going to my parents. Like I've been making the wrong decisions like straight up and my madre is starting to catch on.
The whole last week I've been blazing it up cuhz I ain't got shit to do (which is stupid because i know i can find other shit to do besides this). Uhmm like right now, I can't really be doing shit because lately I have been getting caught up and I hear shit like some of my friends who are like 1 year younger than me are getting caught up also? Damn, thinking about it seems like I'm the bad influence on them, but it's really not. It is our choice to do these things, jus to have fun.. but we know there are other things to do for fun besides...yeah.
Ever since yesterday it kinda hit me hard about doin these things, Thinking Twice about what you're about to do and is it Worth It? Recently just two days ago to be exact, a friend of mine wanted to blaze it up one time with them and said "No, can't even do it." Because it's late and I already know the consequences of what will happen coming home lit. My madre is uhh starting to get a hint of me doing this shit, like she's really starting to find out, the last time I got caught up wasn't even to long ago and my madre was telling me that "Nick, I'm going to bring you to the hospital and ask them to give you a Drug Test." Thats not even the first time she has told me that. So like right now all I gotta do is just keep it coo, lay off that shit, and just do my own thang w/o it. Well back to me saying "No" to my friend, uhh well after that I still had fun that night, we hella just chilled. 2 of my friends and I were sober while the others were higher up. We all played tag just for the hell of it. It was pretty hilarious. And once the night was done the 3 of us who were sober tried helping them who weren't out. Jus told them "Be Safe" etc... We told 2 of them who were the last to get dropped off, the consequences of what would happen if they got caught up (I have a feeling they won't remember). Like "If you get caught up, basically your parents wouldn't let you do anything. They would mostly blame your friends for what you are doing (Peer Pressure), which means you won't be able to see any of us for quite awhile." I just said stuff like that, and those who know what it feels like getting caught up, ya'll know what i mean. It's basically being grounded.
Like right now, so much is just going thru my mind I can't put all of it done. Maybe just because it's not the right time, to put it out there yet.
Well I'ma try again and stay sober for awhile, and just chill off of that shit and do my thang.
I know this shit ain't done yet, It's Just The Beginning..
-Nick (SOLEKIDD)
Yesterday was a pretty long day and it was very shocking, I almost busted one tear because it was that shocking and it was very hard for me especially to believe it. Well let's not get into that right now..
Well lately for me like last week we started Summer Vacation, so i guess we're free right? not exactly. I can't really be going anywhere without giving full information of where I'm going to my parents. Like I've been making the wrong decisions like straight up and my madre is starting to catch on.
The whole last week I've been blazing it up cuhz I ain't got shit to do (which is stupid because i know i can find other shit to do besides this). Uhmm like right now, I can't really be doing shit because lately I have been getting caught up and I hear shit like some of my friends who are like 1 year younger than me are getting caught up also? Damn, thinking about it seems like I'm the bad influence on them, but it's really not. It is our choice to do these things, jus to have fun.. but we know there are other things to do for fun besides...yeah.
Ever since yesterday it kinda hit me hard about doin these things, Thinking Twice about what you're about to do and is it Worth It? Recently just two days ago to be exact, a friend of mine wanted to blaze it up one time with them and said "No, can't even do it." Because it's late and I already know the consequences of what will happen coming home lit. My madre is uhh starting to get a hint of me doing this shit, like she's really starting to find out, the last time I got caught up wasn't even to long ago and my madre was telling me that "Nick, I'm going to bring you to the hospital and ask them to give you a Drug Test." Thats not even the first time she has told me that. So like right now all I gotta do is just keep it coo, lay off that shit, and just do my own thang w/o it. Well back to me saying "No" to my friend, uhh well after that I still had fun that night, we hella just chilled. 2 of my friends and I were sober while the others were higher up. We all played tag just for the hell of it. It was pretty hilarious. And once the night was done the 3 of us who were sober tried helping them who weren't out. Jus told them "Be Safe" etc... We told 2 of them who were the last to get dropped off, the consequences of what would happen if they got caught up (I have a feeling they won't remember). Like "If you get caught up, basically your parents wouldn't let you do anything. They would mostly blame your friends for what you are doing (Peer Pressure), which means you won't be able to see any of us for quite awhile." I just said stuff like that, and those who know what it feels like getting caught up, ya'll know what i mean. It's basically being grounded.
Like right now, so much is just going thru my mind I can't put all of it done. Maybe just because it's not the right time, to put it out there yet.
Well I'ma try again and stay sober for awhile, and just chill off of that shit and do my thang.
I know this shit ain't done yet, It's Just The Beginning..
-Nick (SOLEKIDD)
