Omg, these last couple of days (friday-monday(today)) has been a real Life CHANGING experience.
Like i'm starting to be coo with my mom again, like since I KNOW my mom will be checking this out time to time i jus wanna say this "Ma, uhmm how do i start? Thank you for everything you've given me like i've realized that I'm a fucking asshole to you, and figureing out that verbal abuse can kill you, and one main thing i dont wanna do is lose you. Like when tita sarah would talk to me in the car about how when i was little you would always be the one working the most. i remember not seeing you alot because i was always with either tita sarah or uncle daddy. I'm really sorry about everything. This is i know a really good way for you to get to know me better. I respect you a lot but it's hard for me to show it because you and I are so close we get easially annoyed of each other. I learned that from renjie his gf, because they would get into fight over small shit. Like since I know that you are reading this (literally), read this as if you were one of my friends. That's one main way you will be able to get to know me better. Like you know tita sarah, she would always be chill and let me n renjie cuss only a lil bit and thru any problem she would want us vent to try and out to her. I wanna do that with you. Like i've said so many times that 'I hate you' but really i don't, when i think about it. Why should i hate you? you're the one that has given me life and usually since i slept at renjie's house & charles' house we always talk. And it always got me thinking before i sleep, "Why am i like this toward my mom? she doesn't deserve any of this bullshit" like i would cry at night jus thinkin what would happen if i was with my fucking real dad. But when i think about it if i didnt hate my dad so much, i wouldn't be the person i am today. i know for a goddamn fucking fact! i won't be like him, a Sucka. Like all i'm tryna say is I Love You and thru all the bullshit! it will stay that way. and Ma when you get irritated, dumb it down because i'll do the same also." <----- this shit was today. i cried too while i was typing because she was lying down here next to me as i type because i told her to read it. Thanks Ma, for taking the time out to read this. I Love You Mind. Body. & Soul for everything. If i didn't do confirmation i would be still hella fucked up, but now i'm really trying to help you out and have that special bond between you n I :')."
Second off my boy Charles' house, his shit was so damn chill also my boys Thanh & Kerks were there too. Like jus listenin' to them talk about how fun their junior prom was and how i shoulda went. It's all good tho, that friday i was there to chopp it up with Renjie. So we set for life. Niggas dunno wsup about knowledge. it will be coming up on the next post with the help of the NFLs. Man fuck it, Charles' birthday has to be in a different post. like fuck it! this topic will be to damn beasty for ya'll to handle. ya'll needa check this shit when its out.
Late.... - SOLEKIDD
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