Just Live Your Life.: Ups & Downs.

Yesterday was an arright Friday but it ended better than I thought it would. Well it started out with like uhhhh how do I say this, I was running on 45 min sleep the whole day. I slept at around 5:30ish in the morning that day, I was doing a chemistry project. I swear, I really need to stop procrastinating and do my shit earlier and get it over with so . It's not helping me at all, I'm fucking up in school like it's all bad. In my progress report, i remember i had 2 D's and 2 F's, then once i got my report card, i was able to fix both of those D's but i got another D from cutting my bowling class. Like I'm one of the best bowlers in my class, but skipping one day drops it 1/2 of a letter (basically 5% is lost every time), and i guess i skipped like 6 or 7 times. So from an A (100%) subtract like 35% is like 65% which is a D I think.. And those 2 F's (Geometry & World History) I wasn't able to fix it, even though my teachers told me themselves that I'm showing progress in their classes. I really need to step my game up & stop cutting. Well school was boring because my boys left during lunch for their junior prom. I could have gone because my boy Charles asked me if i wanted to go since he was going in single but at the time when tickets were being purchased i didn't have the money for the ticket neither for a tux. It's all good though, next year is gonna be my year for my junior prom. Hopefully my boys had a DUMBASS CRACKIN' time.

Anyways, after school i headed to Renjie's house to go meet up with him and head to SF. When I met him up something had went down (but let's not get into detail). We stayed at the house for awhile, then Kuya RJ (Renjie's older bro) gave us a ride to El Cerrito Plaza Bart and headed to SF. When we both hopped on Bart train, Renjie had that "something is on your mind" look on his face, so we chopped it up until we got off at Powell and until we got to HUF. Btw, Ren hopefully that Galaxy Seersucker made you feel a little better :D ahaha. Anyways, after HUF we headed to Burger King in Powell (I haven't been in that Burger King since like last year when i was either with my boy Keith or Gabe, that BK was the spot we would always go eat at every time when go to SF, but we've been hittin' Jack-In-The-Box, Panda Express, etc.. We ordered 4 Rodeo Cheeseburgers (2 each for the both of us) and free water aha. I haven't eaten a Rodeo Cheeseburger in like the longest time, that shit was fucking BOMB and its fucking hella good with honey mustard (thanks Ren for letting me try it). Well after we were done eating, to kill some time, we chilled at BK for awhile and had a little fun making a gift lmao.

After Burger King, we went to the Bart station to head back to the east bay. Once we got onto the Bart train, we chopped it up a little bit more. Talking about Karma, like when you do something and later on it will hit you out of no where but it can hit you the same way or it can hit you the way but on a different level. We also talked about Renjie's Dad, like how he has a kidney problem and other stuff. I remember when I found out about that at school my Mom wouldn't let me see him. Like when she said that, i got so fucking heated i threw my phone at the wall and broke it. Like i can't lie when we were talking about his Dad on the Bart train i started to tear up, when something went down at renjie's house on 12/23-24, the relationship between me and his Dad just died like. Renjie's Dad is basically my Step-Dad, he replaced the position of my real Dad when i was growing up, i didn't even know who the fuck was my real dad was until i was in the second grade (7 years old). Like I remember when i was i think 3 or 4, Renjie's Dad used to be manager of a smoke shop, and i remember he would always bring me with him there, i'd be chillin' in the back running around even in the smoke shop itself, he would always get me candy or or let me bring my power ranger action figures so i wouldn't get bored. Like after i got confirmed and I started to try and be coo with Renjie's whole family again. So like after all of that the main thing that i really want to do, is to just to get back that same relationship by talking to his Dad and say that I'm sorry and that I love him for everything he has done for me. But like trying to We talked about a lot of stuff, I dropped some knowledge on him & he dropped some on me. By the time we arrived at like Berkley, I was surprised about how much time we killed and how fast we already got there. Well once we arrived at Del Norte Bart, we chilled there for awhile and waited for Kuya RJ to swoop us up.

Once we arrived to Renjie's house, we went up stairs and jus chilled for a sec slappin' a few songs and watching "Hatching Pete" on disney channel lmao. Then afterwhile, we started talking again, like about our Mom's and general shit like why do our parent's trip so bad about small things? Why do our parent's make us feel way more bad about something that we didn't even start to begin with? Why does everyone like making one problem small problem into a more bigger problem? What is wrong with the world these days? and hella more. Then after talking about that shit, we really started to reminisce over the good times. Like how he used to live with me back at my old home in Pinole Shores. Like we remembered way back then when our neighbors would skate outside and we would watch and join!, going to Joyce's house and everyone jus playing basketball outside, going to the park having rock fights, and going to our old friends Daniel & Stephanie's house either playing pokemon or yugioh cards, playing games like final fantasy, or riding around on our bikes. We were always just chillin' & having fun with it, but when everyone started to move it just died. We also talked about how Tita Sarah (our aunt) would always get mad at us, because me & renjie would always either get into stupid fights over hella dumb shit or we do some stupid shit that ticks her off. And now she's hella chill, like she knows what we go through and she tries to talk to us about it. We talked a whole lot about this kind of stuff. We talked for like 2 hours straight, not even realizing how much time we killed. I ended up sleeping over there and all good..

After last night i jus started to realize & understand that being confirmed is yes another level higher in my faith but it is also another level of maturity because it is your own choice to be confirmed. Like I remember when I joined Youth Ministry (Pt 1 of Confirmation) all i wanted to do was just get it over with. And I remember the Summer Youth Minitry retreat I was able to get to know my friends there more and made some new ones. I remember when it was the last day of the retreat, I didn't want it to end yet and when they played the song "Someover Over The Rainbow" by Israel Kamakawiwo Ole', I cried tears of joy. After that whole experience, they told me to join Emmaus, which i did and ofcourse I am happy that i did.

Shout out to my brother Renjie, i got much love for you brehh. Even though we're like step-brothers or cousins or whatever, you ain't none of that you're my brother my fam. You and me never really talked like that before brehh and don't worry as long as I'm around I got your back no matter what.
Shout to my NFL fam (Keith, Shorty, Jameson, Jerome, Buddy, Anthony & everyone else ya'll know who ya'll are) & the realest friends, through thick & thin ya'll are the ones to talk to and always down to chill. I've learned a fucking shit load of things from alla ya'll especially Keith, Shorty, & Jameson stay dropping Knowledge. This is pretty homo but, I DON'T GIVVVA FUCK!

If you got the time to please listen to these songs, you can relate to them no matter what in your own way, listen to the lyrics carefully